Woohoo!!!
Well today marks the first day of my 8th week of pregnancy. I also went for an early ultrasound today!!! I saw a baby on the screen and I saw the teeny, tiny heartbeat flickering away at a fast tempo! My eyes filled with tears immediately! I was so overjoyed at that moment. That moment I knew Sergio and Federico would be so amazingly happy and know that they would finally be the dads they have longed to be. I was so happy to place the phone call to them once the ultrasound was done. I have so much love in my heart for this precious child. He or she will have such an amazing life I know. It is a different feeling from my last surrogacy too as I will remain on as "Mama". I know that I will not have any active part in the child's life but I want him or her to always know that I love them with all of my heart and will always be here for them if they need me. I am so thrilled that I was finally able to get pregnant for my guys. I had asked God to please allow me to do this for them if at all possible. I really feel that our journey was meant to be. I love my guys so much and I am so happy for them!!!
Tricia
Update!
Hello! Well the previous post was from a cycle that did not end up working. :( I ended up getting my period on August 18th, 2006. That's ok though because that is now my LMP!!! YES!!! LAST MENSTRUAL PERIOD!!! I am so pregnant!!! WOOHOO!!! I am today, 4 weeks and 6 days pregnant! I am thrilled!!! My guys are cautiously excited! I myself am throwing caution to the wind and celebrating! I just know this baby will be fine. I attribute my problems concieving and maintaining a pregnancy during the last 2 years to having been on Paxil. The Paxil was great fo my anxiety but terrible for reproduction. I have been off of it for about 9 weeks now, maybe longer? The new cycle after I went off of the med went back to what it had been for years-25 days long and ovulating on day 14 with an 11 day luteal phase! Woohoo! If that didn't convince me the Paxil was messing with my reproductive system, the fact that we conceived the next cycle (once the timing was right) did! You see, the first cycle off of Paxil, I hadn't anticipated my cycle going back to what it had been (before Paxil). So, I was expecting ovulation to occur much later like day 16 or later. It came on day 14! So, we pretty much missed the window of opportunity for that cycle. But its all good as we are PREGNANT!!! My due date is May 25th, 2007. I have always wanted to have a baby in May. A new birth during the rebirth of nature all around. How lovely! I also don't have to worry about my guys having to drive in snowy weather on the 401 from TO to get here for the birth! Yeah!!! I am so thrilled to have good news for a change!!! Look out blog readers! It is all good from here on out! Woohoo!!!
a very pregnant Tricia :)
New cycle, new hope!!!
Ok! Today, Thursday, August 3, 2006 is CD 10!!! Things seem to be moving along nicely! I am taking my EPO to help my CM out! I am really excited about this cycle! It is my birthday this month! I am going to be 34. Hee hee! So, I prayed to God and asked him to grant me my birthday wish. Can you guess what I wished for? I'll tell you. I wished for a healthy pregnancy with a healthy baby that goes to term and that I may have a quick and easy home birth from which is born a beautiful healthy baby!!! I don't ask for much eh!!! Lol! Hey, listen... It's my birthday and I'll wish for whatever I want! ;) My guys and I deserve this and since its my birthday, I really should get it. We'll see what happens! I am expecting my ovulation day in about 6 more days if it happens upon me as it has the last few cycles. My guys will probably come out before then however to get the sperm to where it needs to be once my egg is released. Oh I hope this will be the one!!! My guys would be so thrilled!!! Please God, please universe, let it be so!!! Peace, love and light to us all!!!Tricia
Yet another negative... :(
Yes, AF showed up unwelcomed yet again. I was so disappointed as were my guys I imagine. We tried so hard this time with 5 days of insems. I was so sure it would work. I guess it is just one of those things that works in its own time...Tricia
I'm back from a break!
I took a little hiatus from my blog as I was getting tired of posting nothing but bad news. The last cycle I posted about did not turn into a pregnancy unfortunately. I am back at it with my wonderful IFs TTC! It has been an interesting cycle. We decided to step up our attemps and do more insems for a longer period. So, this past Saturday, S. came to Windsor and picked me up and brought me to Toronto. It was so nice to see their home as well as their first baby-their restaurant, The Sunset Grill at 1 Richmond St. Their home was as warm as they both are filled with their wonderful energy. You can litterally feel the love engulf you as you enter their appartment. They sat with me for a while and shared some pictures of family and friends. I really felt connected to them in that moment. Then when I saw their restaurant, I was so proud! I saw them in action running their restaurant. S. has such a way with people and keeps everything on the front end running smoothly and very gracefully puts things back together when they temporarily fall apart. F. is a magnificent cook and works the kitchen like he really owns it. I swear I thought someone had put him into fast-forward while I was watching him as he was working so quickly and efficiently! I kept thinking "You go boy!" After witnessing my IFs taking care of their restaurant I have such a respect for them. You can really tell a lot about a person by watching them work. My IFs both have plenty of respect, passion, kindness and gusto. If I had been concerned about them raising a child (which I had not been but had I been) all of my fears would have been allayed. My IFs are now here in Windsor with me for a couple of extra days of insems. We are all crossing our fingers that tomorrow is ovulation day so that we will have pegged it just right! My IFs can't stay past Wednesday as they need to get back to their restaurant. I am really, really, really hoping that we are suprised with a nice little surprise in about 10 months from this insem try! I know they will be a wonderful Papa and Daddy. I hope it will come true for them as of this try. I know how dedicated they are in doing whatever is needed to achieve their goal of having a baby. I think we are all getting tired of the TTC phase of our journey and are more-than-ready to feel and rejoice in the we're pregnant! phase!!! Woohoo!!! So let it be so!!!
Tricia
Woohoo!!!
Today is June 14 and CD 12. We have completed our insems for this cycle and hopefully for this journey!!! I am very hopeful as we had GREAT CM! All my body needs to do now is ovulate and that little eggie will be bombarded with tons of sperm in waiting! LOL! I am very hopeful! I have one pregnancy test in my closet and I vow not to touch it until 14 days post O. We will see if I can resist. Hee hee! I will update as soon as I have news!Tricia
New cycle and hopefully a new beginning!
Well, I am on CD 12 today (June 14). I have been getting lots of ferning on my saliva monitor and my CM is nice and stretchy too. Woohoo! I am fertile!!! So, yesterday, I called my guys, S. and F. and we were to go to TO for insems this cycle (my family and I). We all thought it would be a nice change of pace and that we would have a chance to see S. and F.'s home and restaurant. The details did not pan out so S. came to us instead. F. could not come because he was nursing a very sore pulled muscle and driving would have been too uncomfortable. So, S. has been here since Tuesday afternoon and we have already done 2 insemminations!!! We were delighted as well as he joined us for supper and we had such a lovely visit. Have I mentionned that I have the best IFs ever there was? They are simply wonderful men and I know what excellent fathers they will be. I am so proud and thrilled that I have been chosen by them to help them in their endevour. S. gave us such a nice compliment at dinner tonight. He said that we have beautiful and happy children and that they are so well-behaved. I was so thrilled because I wanted to be a stay-at-home Mama so that my children could feel secure and feel well cared for. I guess it worked! If I ever get a job it will only be to have more money for my family. My career is at home and with my children. I love being a Mama. S. has decided to stay another day in Windsor so that we can do another set of insems. I am so glad as this will only increase our chances of conceiving! I am so hopeful for this cycle as my CM is just awesome!!! I'd even go as far as saying it is perfect! As long as I ovulate within the next few days, I am very confident that we will conceive a healthy baby and have a healthy pregnancy. S. and I had a nice heart to heart today. It was so special to me. We shared feelings and thoughts regarding our journey and it made me feel all-the-more that I have chosen to do this for such wonderful people. I love being a surrogate! It is definitely a passion of mine! ...more to follow later!Tricia
Update
Ok. Even though I got 2 positives on HPTs, I am not pregnant. :( I went to the doctor's and he sent me for blood work. The blood test (B-hCG) came back negative. I was disappointed and a bit confused given the HPT positives. I won't be buying that brand again. Actually, I think it may have been a chemical pregnancy. Oh well, now it is time to focus on our next try!!!Tricia
Oh my goodness!!!
Ok, I am so very excited!!! I started bleeding 3 days ago and naturally thought it was my period and was SO disappointed thinking that once again, we were not pregnant. However, I stopped bleeding after only 2 days which I thought was quite odd as I usually bleed for 4 days and then spot on the fifth day. Also, recently in my surrogacy group, another TS found out after 2 months that she was pregnant!!! She had had 2 "periods" and so did not think that she was pregnant. I figured that I should test just to make sure that I was indeed not pregnant. So I took a test today and I got a sliver of a line. I thought I was crazy and surely that couldn't be a line!!! So, I waited 4 more hours and didn't drink anything so that I could concentrate my urine and I took another pregnancy test. It was positive!!! WOOHOO!!! The line was very light but it was unmistakenly there!!! I am being cautiously excited until I see a heartbeat on an u/s. I called my guys S. and F. tonight at 11:15 pm and woke them up. Hee hee! (Sorry guys!) I told S. the news and he was excited although he is being cautious as well. He said he would tell F. the good news as well! I love my guys so much-they are such wonderful men! They will make a wonderfull Daddy and Papa!!! I hope this little baby is going to stick around for the long haul!!! Woohoo!!!Tricia
Uuuuuuuuuuuhoooooooooooooh... :(
I woke up this morning with lower back pain which is a telltale sign of my period coming. :_ _ (I guess I'll know for sure in a couple of days... This was supposed to be THE cycle darn it! Waaaaaaaaaaah!!! Tricia
